tmr workin mornin shift -
thurs onwards full shift all the way ;
shytss luhhs ` zZz .

damn pissed off now ;
LEAVE MI ALONE ` RAWRSS .

sleepy sleppy nw ;
shall briefly blog abt today bahs -

it's also the day tat i've known boi ffer 1mth .

off-day today `
wenn tuu tamp 'Nokia Care' tuu service moii hp ;
told them the probs tat im facing in moii hp `
& they say they will check ffer mii & all data will be gone .
was kinda sad as there's loads of memories in moii hp ;
all msgs will be gone ,, contacts & calanders data ` sighhs luhhs -
will be gettin back moii hp in 7-8days time .
& ffer the time being ,, will be using mum's hp budd moii no. -
& very sry tuu all whom did msged mii on 26-28jan (2days ago-today) .
ii didnt meant nort tuu reply tuu uu all ;
it's jus tat ii couldnt reply any msgs due tuu the error of moii hp -
im nort dao-ing or mia-ing uhhs .
however ` with effect from nw ,, im at least able tuu recieve & reply msgs lerhs =)

slacked ardd tamp while waitin boii tuu knocked off from his work ;
waited till ardd 6pm+ & he came wid his fren, liang v2 .
wenn tuu find their fren de godma at levis & aft on wenn slacked again ,,
watched them smoking & etc ,,
did 1 IQ question ,, budd ii failed tuu accomplish the task .
slacked till ardd dono wad time & wenn tuu hab dinner nearby ;
crapp crapp crapp all the way ,,
& boi sent mii hm aft tat -
reached hm ardd 10pm+ .
tiredd ,, sighhs .

having mood-swing recently .
feeling so moody everyday `
dono wad happened tuu mii uhhs ;
habb an urge tuu MIA budd ii promised some ppl tat ii couldnt MIA -
anyways ii must learn tuu be independent `
nort tuu rely on any1 ;
must oso learn tuu live w/o any1 ` rawrss .

anyways ` ffer those who noe mii earlier in moii sec-sch lyfe ;
they should noe how high ish moii tolerance lvl ish used tuu be -
ii could endure all the griefs w/o voicing anything out ,,
ii could still rmb vididly how those ppl treated mii in the past `
ii might forgive them budd i'll nv forgotten how they used tuu treat mii .
' the sarcastic & harsh comments ,, the way they bullied mii lyk nobody business '

however `everything habb changed as time passes .
moii character habb also changed due tuu the environment -
ii wouldnt be so forbearance anymore ;
' the gal who ish no longer who she ish anymore '
im also nort one tuu mess with TY . zZz .
so dun provoke mii if possible ,,
nv test moii patience .

worked full shift today ;
partnered wid lynn & another 2unknown guys at wagons ,,
it was again so busy luhhs `
those uncivilized customers kept making a mess out of everything ;
& making life difficult ffer us -
realli tiredd of tis kind of situation .
moii level of patience getting worse as each weekend passes ; lolss .
everything was so messy ,, makin mii headache =.=
budd at least it's slightly btr than ytd ,,
bth the manager ` she's so biased luhhs ,, ddotss .
anyways ` mi & lynn hab been working tgt ffer quite long ,,
& it's actt the 1st time tat we can eat tgt at the same timing -
lols ` rare chancee yarhs .
soon aft breaktime ` & it's kinda sad tat she habb tuu report tuu BHG tuu work liaos ;
considered last day of working wid her lerhs -
aft she've gone ,, im lyk so sianns luhhs ;
didnt tok wid the 2unknown guys at all `
was standing at there emo-ing till knock off ` lolss .
knocked off at 9.30pm `
& hp ish still unable tuu recieve/send msgs .
rawrsss - sighhs .

till now ` ii still hab nort sumbit moii JAE application form =.=

woke upp ardd 7am in the morning ,,
wenn tuu dad's office tgt wid him ;
as ii nid a printer urgently as tuu sumbit moii DAE thingy `
settled everything ardd 9am+ ;
& ii wenn tuu bugis tuu find baby & her classmates `
acc them tuu walk ard tuu collect donations ffer the charity ;
& we encountered 1 siaokia ah pek .
& he kept stalking us ` ewwws ;

headed tuu work ardd 11am ,,
worked wid florence , lynn & fu de `
& very soon aft ` WAR again !
the 6 wagons were all in such a mess luhhs ;
the kiasu customers were ripping lyk hells again ,,
uncontrollable luhhs ` couldnt stop them from messing & opening the clothes luhhs .
& shyt the manager ` she actt scolded mii & fu de infront of everyone `
so manii eyes were staring at us luhhs ` zZz .
she blamed us ffer failing tuu control the customers ;
& resulted in ,, 'her customers are unable tuu find the sizes they wan' `
ii feel lyk smacking her face luhhs ,,
it's lyk im capable of handling 6wagons on my own liddat ;
ii folded back 1 ,, another 10 customers ripping ` zZz .
super headacheee ;
had a kinda heated arguement wid 1 of the phill lady customer -
budd lols ,, she've nth tuu say in the end xDD ;
however ` loads of eyes were looking at us while we're quarreling . =.=
soon aft ` the manager did helped us arrange 1 of the wagons ;
& lols ,, she've probs packing too =x
& she even told 1 of the supervisor tat it's impossible tuu control the crowd .
well ` & b4 tat she's lyk scolding mii ffer unable tuu control ;
& now ,, she herself couldnt manage too . =.=
the mess was realli horrible & terrible ;
mii & fu de tried tuu write some notes on the boards ;
written ' pls see the samples ! Do not open '
however ` it isnt effective luhhs .
those horrible customers were realli damn zZz ;
use mouth tell them = dunch listen , heck care .
use writings tell them = act as nv see , heck care .
it's so ridiculous luhhs ` shtyyyyttsss !
the crowds did nort disband ffer even a second luhhs `
however ` we finally managed tuu arrange everything nicely when it's almost 10pm xDD -
budd the unpacked clothes were WOWSS ;
more than 120pcs ii guessed ,,
filled up 1 of entire wagon below & 1/2 of another wagon below ;
it's realli realli horribleeee & yet those ppl still cont tuu open non-stop =.=
& ddotsss ! moii waterbottle was MISSING ,, rawrrss -
lynn's waterbottle was missing ytd & today ` it's mine & fu de's ones missing .
zZz ` did the wagon eat up our waterbottles =.=
we jus couldnt find it anywhere luhhs .
knocked off at 10pm `
& was intending tuu meet boi at sk ;
however ` it's too late as im at sk & he's still at enous T.T
& so ii wenn hm instead .
feeling so tiredd & headache =(

kinda frustrated over moii hp =.=
'fone memory full' , it's been appearing every once in awhile recently . zZz .
& it resulted tat im nort able tuu recieve msgs & send msgs & etc ;
& the prob ish ii couldnt find whr those memory were used at =.=
hmphhhs ,, habb tuu get moii hp repair asap luhhs ;
ii couldnt tolerate it T.T

ahhhhs ` ii havenn sumbitted moii JAE form ` rawrrsss .

when ish the next time ii can see boi again?

25jan08 ` fri ` TODAY
aftnoon shift today at OG Albert again ;
worked wid lynn & fu de at wagon .
it's the 2nd last day i'll get tuu work wid them & at wagon bahs .
they will be transfered & i'll be at counter liaoss -
sadsadsad ,, it's realli nice & fun working wid them ` (moii best working mates yeahhhs xDD) .
although it's realli busy & frustrating working at tis area as there's so mani blahblah customers .
loads of new stocks came today again ;
20+ BIG boxes which some boxes consisted of 100pcs of clothes per box .
did the stocks from 3pm till nite time `
& those kiasu customers were ripping the clothes while we're doin stocks -
open , open & open ` zZzz .
& ii did made some nasty comments indirectly shooting them ;
budd wadd i've said ish the fact =.=
they're realli zZz (beyond describe) .
habb a slight argurment wid a few of the customers ;
some of their words & actions were realli untoleratable .
packed lyk hell againnsss ` sighhhs -
busy busy busy . T.T
& knocked off at 10pm ;
tiredd luhhhhs -
tmr gonna work full shift ` awwwsss .

sighhs `
habb tuu make moii 12choices asap ;
habb tuu consider wisely & hardd ! T.T

woke up kinda late today & prepared ffer work -
jus nice ,, reported at 12.30pm ` phewwss .
worked wid auntie yujiao at counter today -
& the wagons were left ffer 2 new guys & 1 new gal tuu handle .
budd well ,, we didnt tok ffer a single word at all ` lolss -
loads of stocks came today x.x
inserted the censored-tag ffer 20boxes on moii own ;
which consisted of ardd an avg of 12clothes in a box .
the rest of the boxes were done by yujiao & etc -
managed tuu finish insertin the tags at ardd 4pm x.x
baby came tuu find mii tuu hab moii breaktime aft her lessons -
& ardd 5.30pm++ ,, she headedd back hm lerhs .
stood at the counter & rot lyk hellss ;
no one tuu tok tuu at all ` sianns luhhs -
it's even worse whenn it hits 8pm ` as yujiao were tuu knock off liaos ;
& ii were tuu rot at the counter alone .
kept yawning & moii eyes even goin tuu close =.=

sianns uhhhs ` everday gonna stand at counter wid florence liaoss -
& im goin tuu turn into mute gal again =.=
hate being mute luhhs .
fri & sat will be the last day workin wid lynn .
kinda sad uhhhs as ii will be missing working wid her ;

goshhh ;
tmr 2pm will be moii death day =.=
will miracle happen? T.T

ii miss my boi -

took leave on thurs ;
realli very nervous ` sighhs -
manii ppl are so anxious tuu noe moii results `
im worried tuu disappoint every1 .
ii realli wish ii can achieve good results ,, budd ii doubt so -
vexedd uhhhs -

tmr working again `
siannns ,, hope no war norhs =/

thurs will be getting moii O's level results -
the day hab finally goin tuu arrive .
mixed feelings luhhs ;
habb a very bad feeling tat i wouldnt get good results -
budd well ` no point tinkin so much .
hope gt miracle bahss -

sighhhs -
baby i nid tuu tok tuu u ! =/
confusion ~

20jan08 ` sun ` TODAY
woke up ardd 10am ;
prepared & wenn dwn tuu eat wid baby & moii dad -
aft eatin ` we cabbed dwn tuu moii working place ;
it's still kinda early & so we walked ardd `
reached working place ,, & wow ,, WAR again ! =.=
even worse scenario as ytd =.=
realli couldnt take it luhhs .
gib attitude tuu some of the unreasonable customers -
& gib some bushuang expression ` kinda fierce ` lolss =x
been packing from 12.30pm tuu 9.30pm non-stop luhhs ;
tiredddsss -
& wowww ,, suddenly ` boi popped up infront of mii at ardd 4pm+ .
tot ii couldnt see him anymore too -
was so happi tat ii could see him once again =))
he waited mii tuu hab moii lunch/dinner break ;
& im waiting ffer baby tuu come tuu `
habb lunch/dinner wid them ardd 5.30pm+ -
& they left aft ii scanned in ;
missess them loadss ` moii zui ai de boi & moii zui hao de baby =))
ardd 7pm+ ,, mum & dad suddenly popped up too =.=
they came tuu shop ffer stuffs & etc ;
knocked off ,, wen back hm wid mummy `
reached hm ardd 11.30pm ~
tireddsss .

tmr finally off day liaosss xDD -
budd ii guess i'll be going out bahhs .
nort so sure abt it ~
tmr it's oso the 1st day of work ffer boi =)
hope everything will turn out fine ffer him ~
all the best yeahhhs xDD .

boi told mi tat he wouldnt make mii cry again ;
should ii believe him?
im afraid of disappointment again `
budd ii lovess him -

sighs -
blessings tuu him & her -
budd i'll always rmb him deeply in moii heart -

" wo bu yao gen ni hao ler "
" bu gen wo hao , wo jiu poke ni "
i'll nv forget those liness ` sobsss .

sighhs ,,
he've made his decision ;
& i've lost him `
bud i'll always rmb the moments tat we've been tgt -

The short memories we shared ` nv be forgotten
28dec07 - the day we met .
02jan08 - love blossomed ` packup , wen chinatown, wen ochard .
05jan08 - wen ctp find him aft work .
07jan08 - offday ` wen suntec .
10jan08 - send mi hm from work .
11jan08 - wen giant aft work, drove mi hm .
13jan08 - wen bugis juct meet him & his fren aft work ` bcome ug gf .
14jan08 - offday ` wen parkway parade .
16jan08 - send mi hm from work .
18jan08 - send mi hm from work , the last meeting we hab .

wenn tuu moii blog & zZz `
rdm playlist song = 'wei se mo xiang ai de ren bu neng zai yi qi' .
damnssss ,, isnt it too concidence? zZz -
played tis kind of song when im feeling so emo ` kns luhhs . zZz .

shall end everything here ;
im realli too tired & moodless tuu type .
sighhs `
mei you jie guo de ai -

wid effect from 15jan08 `
moii ez-link fare been changed tuu adult fare =.=
kns luhhhs ` so ex now ` hmphhss T.T

16jan08 ` wed ` TODAY
worked wid florence , shirley & yujiao -
54boxes of stocks -.-"
budd each box oni hab ardd 12-15 shirts bahs =x
so in total ardd 650 shirts `

boi came tuu find mii at ardd 8pm at my workplace =)
was so delighted tuu get tuu see him ;
been waiting ffer him tuu appear since 7pm =x
knocked off at 8pm `
waited him tuu smoke awhile & we train-ed tuu sengkang .
was behaving kinda emo due tuu some reasons -
realli very afraid tuu lose him .
& ii hab a sense tat he might choose tuu leave mii ;
sighhhs ,, will my prediction come true? ii wonders .
slacked at the void deck till ardd 11pm -
habb some talks ` feeling very lost ;
im still asking myself ,,
am i right tuu be wid him?
am i wrong tuu love him?
can i replace her in his heart?
can we last?
do he still have her in his heart?
will he be faithful tuu mi?
will he be nice tuu mi?
can i be as nice as her?
awwws ,, full of questions marks again =.=
vexedd ! ,, budd no point tinking as theres no answer .
aft those serious talks , tried tuu change the atmosphere =x
learnt a 'new game' from boi ` lyk those finger games in pub =x
ii noe im abit slow ` lolss .
partedd ardd 11pm `
cherish the moments wid him .
wondering how mani more chances do ii hab in future ;
loves him deep deep .

im afraid tuu noe the decision tat he's goin tuu make in future -
budd ii still hab tuu accept it .

boi came tuu moii hse at ardd 3pm+ ;
styled his hair & etc .
ardd 4pm+ ,, wenn tuu take bus43 tuu parkway parade -
the rain was pouring budd we manage tuu make our way tuu the bus-stop =)
waited ffer the bus till ardd 5pm =.=
cam-whored a few pics while waiting -
reached parkway parade at ardd 6pm+ `
habb our dinner 1st -
& it's so conicidence tat we actt ordered the same food out of so mani choices =)
aft eating ,, wenn tuu check if our pay hab come -
& unfortunately ,, we recieved bud was yet tuu be withdraw .
wenn tuu search ffer the secret shop =)
budd too bad ,, we didnt get tuu do our stuffs there =x
walkedd ardd & we wenn out of parkway parade tuu see him smoke -
sang couple songs & some emo songs tgt =x
& he smoked 4cig (i counted -.-")
wenn back tuu parkway parade at ardd 8pm+ `
walked ardd again & took a few pics . (perphaps pics will be ready in a few days time)
bus-ed 43 back tuu sengkang at ardd 9.30pm+ .
it's so cold in the bus & boi gave his blazer tuu mii =))
slacked at the void deck till ardd 11pm+ .
& we parted again =((

oh yarhhs ` lastly -
boi kept bully me today ! =((
( i told him i would blog abt it ` lalalas =P )

sighhhs `
moii love ffer him is getting stronger as the days passes -
ii really hope he wont let mii dwn ;
love him deep deep .

siannns ;
tmr working morning shift again -
tiring luhhhs .

knocked off at 8.30pm .
headed tuu bugis junction tuu find boii & 4 of his frens =))
waited them tuu hab their food & we wenn tuu bugis street .
walkedd ardd & back tuu bugis junction again ;
watching them smoke & etc `
wenn kinokuya & read on some books ` lolss .
aft which ,, mii & boi parted wid his frens lerhs -
mrt-ed back tuu sengkang wid boi =)
lovess him loadss ` misses .

tmr finally ish moii off-day .
will be goin tuu the surprise shop wid boii tmr -
so anxious & excited xDD .
lalalalas ;

perphaps gotta off tuu slp ` too tiredd tuu tink & blog .
lack of slp nowadaysss =((
yawNnnnss .

02jan08 ` love started tuu blossom .
13jan08 ` offically date of 'ug' love .
??? ` offically belongs only tuu mii ` wonderin if the day will come 1 fine day .

worked wid florence ,, shirley & lynn -
business was super good ;
packed wid loads of customers `
super busy lyk hell again ,,
leg tiring ,, hand tiring & even mouth tiring =.=
total sold more than 200+ promotion polo-tees today ;
budd too bad ,, ii didnt gain anythin too ` lolss -
oni gained more work load tuu do =(
worked extra 1/2hr today `
as ii didnt wanna go hm so early =x
was kinda pressure when the manager was standin nxt tuu mii `
& was observing how ii serve the customers ;
kinda worried tat will get scolding from her -
as she ish known as the most fierce person at tat department .
however ` in fact ,, she seems tuu be quite nice tuu mii `
lols ,, kinda surprising & glad at the same time xDD -

knocked off at 8.30pm `
bought a top & a jeans while walkin tuu the mrt station =x
awwws ,, cant spend so much liaoss ` gonna broke .
mrt-ed back tuu sengkang -
waited mum at cp till 10pm+ `
& walked hm tgt .

sighhs `
recieved a msg from boi -
& it almost made moii heart sank .
hopefully it wouldnt come true ;
cant bear tuu lose him .
realli love him loads loads ,,
ii hab no idea y the feeling ish so strong .
& ii jus cant resist it at all `
budd i'll respect the decision tat he ish goin tuu make -
no matter wadd ,, i'll always rmb tat we once habb memorable moments tgt .
lovess & missess .

u're the first ting ii tink of `
each morning when ii rise .
u're the last ting ii think of `
when ii close my eyes .
u're in each thought ii hab `
& every breath ii take .
moii feelings r growing stronger
with every time we meet =))

met boi at cityhall mrt station `
waitedd ffer him awhile ;
was happi tuu see him =))
he sent mii hm & we walked ard the streets again ,,
& he bought some food ffer mii tuu eat =x
& soon aft ` we parted again =((
missess him loadsss .

11jan08 ` fri ` TODAY
worked at OG Albert again -
partnered wid florence ` yujiao & a new-comer ,, lynn .
& ii was slightly late again uhhs =((
doze off while waitin ffer the train `
& almost missed the train ` lolss =x

reached OG Albert `
1st ting ,, pour away the dirty water `
& were tuu arrange all the shirts according tuu size under the wagon ;
next ,, was tuu change all the plastic bag of the polo-shirts -
& customers started tuu come continously .
serve serve serve & etc `
wenn ffer lunch break at 3pm ;
came back ,, goshhhh ~
stocks come (500 promotion polo-tees + other regular shirts) ;
& yet ,, the 500polo-tees habb no price-tag !!
habb tuu put in 1 by 1 by my own ` -.-"
luckily yujiao helped out too ` if nort sure die =x
aft puting the price tag ,, habb tuu tie up the clothes according tuu size -
& ii came up wid a suggestion which ish `
ii arranged it according tuu size ` followed by colour range & tie them up =)
it's much easier ffer us tuu find the colour tat the customers want .
arrange lyk hell` packed lyk hell T.T
been rushing from 4pm tuu 7pm+ -
it's really tiring yet the pay ish super low =.="
isnt worth doing so much tings actt .
however ` jus habb tuu bear wid it luhhs ` saddistic life =(

knocked off at 8pm `
& was kinda disappointed when ii didnt see boi turned up as he promised tuu -
& well ` actt the fact ish tat he mistaken moii knocked off timing =x
it's kinda unlucky tat moii hp batt was flat `
however ` ii bumped onto thomas on the road ;
& so ii requested him tuu lend mii his hp awhile -
thx loadss ~ if nort ii wouldnt habb contacted boi .
waited ffer him tuu come dwn from centerpt from bugis ;
sat there & rot `
was kinda worried tat he couldnt find mii .
ardd 8.40pm ` we finally managed tuu see each another -
walked tuu bugis junction awhile ;
& we mrt-ed tuu tampines -
took the shuttle-bus tuu Giant .
tried tuu cam-whore ` budd fail ` lolss -
bought sushi & a can-drink .
& he drove mii back tuu sengkang using HER car ` o.o -
slacked under my flat while seeing him smoke again =xx
& suddenly ` ii heard moii parents' voice !!
it was lucky tat they didnt see mii ` (as im hiding behidn the wall) ` phewws .
& soon we parted again lerhhs =(

the last scene was memorable =))
lovesss =))

came hm `
was discussing family prob wid moii parents -
ii guessed the decision habb been set bahs ;
unless gort miracle .
sighhhhs -

on9 msn `
& wahhhs ` been long since a few ppl chatted wid mi on9 when im on9 st9 away =x
namely aimei mei , kel di , taiyang , erickorkor & boi (bud im the one pm-ing him 1st =x)

exhausting uhhhhs -
tmr morning shift again ~
hopefully ii wouldnt be late again =x

pathetic ` solo wagon again =(
habb tuu do wagon stocks on moii own again ;
luckily oni hab ardd 100+ ffer mii tuu do `
was shock upon hearing the news tat moii brand hit 170k sales on dec .
ii was lyk waaaa !! budd too bad ii've no commission =.=
didnt habb any breaktime today ,,
super hungry uhhhhs . =(

tmr gonna work again `
guess it will be a tiring day ;
tmr habb tuu pack up wagon lerhs -
& the stocks are lyk omggs =(

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我　
拥抱瞬间　
不后悔　
这暧昧
星光唯美
part of a song lyrics ` kinda nice o.o -

Enchanted Affinity xDDD -
lovesss boii .

Flipping thru our photos `
reminds mii of the precious moments we had tgt -
it's unreplacable ,, unforgettable ;
& it's always be rmbed in my heart .

We may not noe each other very long as compared tuu others `
budd the moments we spent tgt r strong enough tuu outweigh the time -
as long as our hearts r tgt as one ,,
i've no regret being wid u till the end of time .

U're the guy tat is always on my mind `
the one & only , boi .
lovesss -

woke upp ardd 10am+ xDD -
on com & chat online .
been kinda long since ii signin msn =x
tried tuu help boi tuu design his upcoming blog ;
budd met some difficulties ` lols -
the concept of the design ish beautiful ;
budd ii do nort realli hab the ability tuu design such a beautiful one -
however ` i'll try moii best bahs xDD -

aft on ` prepared myself & etc ;
& headed tuu meet boi at cp at ardd 3pm =))
ii was kinda late ,, so sry boi -

mrt-ed tuu suntec -
walkedd ardd ,, took loads of pics =x
camwhored lyk siaos again ` lolss . xDD
habb tuu find time tuu upload & edit the pics =x
well ` we could jus take any photos at any place =x
habb so much fun taking photos =))
took some creative photos too ~
love our photos loads loads -
enjoyed the moments together =)
how i wish time could stop there forever -

hab moii breakfast / lunch / dinner all at one go at ardd 7pm -
budd wasnt tat hungry actt ` weirdd mii ~
aft eatin ,, intended tuu go parkway parade -
budd we didnt noe how tuu go there =x
so at last ,, we didnt get tuu go there -
ii wonder when can ii get tuu go tuu tat 'surprise shop' at parkway parade ;
lols ` awaiting xDDD -
aft on ` boi recieved a cor from some1 ;
stating tat he've passed the 2nd round of interview & was hiredd xDD -
grats boii ` im happi ffer uu too =)) .

mrt-ed back tuu sengkang aft tat -
reached ardd 9pm+ ,,
walkedd ard cp & wenn tuu find moii mum =x
mum hab a shock seeing boi wid mii ;
budd she didnt say anythin duhhs .
boi walked mi hm from cp aft tat `
slacked downstairs moii hse till ardd 10.30pm+ -
& ii wen up lerhhs ;
missess him loadss -
wonder when can get tuu see him the nxt time =((

boii ,,
ii noe u're very confuse abt our stuffs -
ii noe u're in a dilemma ;
ii can understand how u're feeling right now -
budd dunch be too stress kae ;
calm down & think carefully `
ii dunch wanna uu tuu regret too ,,
i'll wait ffer euu tuu sort out ur feelings . =))
lovess .

baby came tuu find mii during work ardd 2pm+ `
it's been 2mths+ since i met up wid her ;
she acc mii ffer lunch/dinner till ardd 4pm ,,
& she set off tuu find her ling mummy lerhs -
wonderin whenn can hab the chance tuu see baby again .

knocked off at 8pm+ ,,
mrt-ed tuu somerset & wenn centerpt find liang -
saw a schmate workin dere too ` budd didnt wenn forward tuu say anythin .
waited ffer liang till ht knocked off at ardd 9.30pm ;
& we walked tuu cine wid 1 of his fren named dono wad liang oso -
awws ,, habb a poor memory of rmbing ppl names nowadays ;
wenn opp cine tuu hab some drinks & chats `
& we walked tuu dhobydaut mrt from cine area -
slacked outside dhobydaut mrt ffer some time ;
& camwhored abti wid liang again ` lols .
budd ii look so ugly luhhs ,, bad shots ffer mii =(
ii was kinda quiet ytd `
feeling kinda weirdd weirdd de -
dono wadd im doin ish right or wrong ;
ii dunch wanna be a bytch ` lolss =x
mrt-ed back tuu sengkang ardd 11.30pm+ `
& they walkedd mii back hm aft tat =)
reachedd hm ardd 12.30am midnite ~

called kel didi as promised ;
discussed wid kel di & aimei mei abt the audi new char tingy -
& im kinda emo siao liddat =.=
kept askin them tuu play "bu neng shuo de mi mi" ffer mii tuu listen & sing =x
they were kinda worried tat i'll cry out of a sudden `
budd lols ` dunch worri ,, im wouldnt cry luhhs =.=
didnt told them anything abt moii worries ;
oni mentioned tuu them tat im so confused + tired + hungry ! lols *true* -
slept ardd 2am+ aft tat .

06jan08 ` sun ` TODAY
didnt habb tuu go ffer work today =))
off off off ! xDD -

planned tuu tidy up moii rm & edit the photos ;
budd last min changess ` lolss -

vanessa came tuu moii hse ardd 1pm+ tuu take the books tt im gibin her -
it's oso been long since i last met her up ;
bu zhi bu jue we've known each other ffer 6yrs =)
we habb some heart-to-heart chats ;
told her some of moii worries & etc .
& she did tok some sense tuu mii =)
lata on ` we did sang some songs tgt ~
kinda fun ~ as it's the 1st time sing tgt wid her =x
ardd 4pm+ ,, acc her dwn tuu eat some food ;
wanted tuu take photos budd she doesnt wan =(
& so ii walked her tuu the busstop aft tat .

ish he the right guy ffer mii?
is he moii type?
or am ii his type?
do he realli serious in mii?
will we hab future?
will there be any happiness?
will i regret?
will his feelings fade?
are we meant tuu be tgt?
who will he choose?
wadd will happen next?

all of the above qns ,,
ii wouldn noe & wouldn get tuu noe the ans -
it all depends on our fate bahs ;
ii oni noe i've fallen ffer him, boii .
missess & lovess -

To jer `
i noe recently u're tryin tuu ask mii ffer patch -
& hab been waitin ffer moii reply `
& hoping tat we can be tgt as before ;
however ` i've alr tink thru it carefully ,,
it's impossible ffer us tuu be back as lyk before `
although u may seems tuu be treatin mii kinda nice recently -
budd the feeling ish gone .
ii can oso sense tat u doesnt hab much feelings ffer mii ;
ii couldnt sense any bits of love too .

There's always be a hole there .
u've been in a new relationship aft we broke up `
& although u & her ish alr over ,,
budd ii noe u still couldnt forget her -
she will always stand a place in ur heart `
maybe nort a huge portion ,, budd there's always be a bit .

well ` ii guessed we should jus remain as frens -
a fren tat could last always =)

04jan08 ` fri ` TODAY
worked at OG Albert at 11am today `
& im late ffer work again =((
partnered wid florence ,, auntie yujiao & juanling -
nort much customers budd was super busy .
loads of stocks(ard 1k) came & needa pack & arrange them ;
& oso nid tuu carry them up tuu the storey2 storerm T.T
so heavy somemore ` handd pain uhhhs -
miss some1 loads again ahhhhs `
took 1hr tuu sort out the polo-tees according tuu size dench pattern dench color ~
kills timess =x
at nite , jer came fetch mi from work again ;
he waited outside as ii dunch wanna gossips -
reached hm & here im blogging .

tmr working morning shift -
must nort be late ! T.T
already kanna warning liaoss ` lolss . =(

ahhhhs `
im afraid tat im stepping too deep inside -
have i fallen for him ?
ii hope nort as im nort allowed to .
will there be any future ?
ii dare nort tink .
sighhs ` moreover ,, im uncertain how he feels at all .

010108 ` tues ` YTD de YTD
first day of year 2008 ~
& ii hab tuu work at OG Albert .
busy lyk hell again ,,
basically nth special happened ;
at nite ,, jer gave mii a surprise by poping out suddenly `
& he sent mii hm aft ii knocked off .

020108 ` wed ` YTD
mornin 9.30am ,, wen tuu expo packup ;
surprisingly ,, ii was the 1st one tuu reach `
built 10+ cartons & packed in 1 box of ls shirt .
& soon aft kaixiang came & some time lata liang came too ;
tried our best tuu pack everything within the time limit .
& ardd 12pm+ ` we finally settled everything xD -

headed tuu slack outside the foodcourt dere ;
chit-chat wid liang & kaixiang `
& camwhore wid liang lyk siaos ` lols .
he loves takin photos lyk mii ` hohoho -
kaixiang helped us took some too ;
& some pics were funni ~
bu zhi bu jue ,, we took over 50pics ` lols -
actt it's more than tat ,, budd some pics ii look so sux in it =.=
slacked till ardd 3.30pm+ liddat .
& kaixiang cabbed hm liaos -

mii & liang decided tuu mrt-ed tuu chinatown ;
wenn tuu his fren's shop & bought 1 pair of shoes `
nicenicenice & managed tuu get some discount thru liang xDD .
shopped ardd & bought another top as well ;
lovess it loadss xDD .
& liang managed tuu get discount ffer mii too ;
all thx tuu his super mouth ` lolss .

ardd 5pm+ `
trained tuu ps ~
ate ` chatted & slacked ardd ;
realised we hab quite alot of similar stuffs `
funnii ` lols .
wenn in Yamaha ,,
played wid the instruments & etc .
& so sad tat i've lost moii skills in piano uhhs -
forgotten all songs tat i've learnt =(

smoke smoke smoke ~
ahemms ,, only him nort mii =x
& he actt smoked more than 10cig =.=
& o.O ,, he f0rg0tten tuu take his pack of cig aft smokin at ps's carpark .
aft which ,, wenn back tuu find budd couldnt find liaos -
& we wenn tuu buy another pack norhs ;
tryin tuu stop him from smoking ` lols .
budd he diedie must smoke derhs . =x

intended tuu walk from ps tuu ochard area ;
budd it's drizzling -
so we trained back tuu sengkang at ardd 8.30pm+ .
walked ard & he took some solo pics ;
& we walked back tuu moii hse dere `
slacked till ardd 10.30pm+ .
super tireddd yet enjoyable xDD -

will upload the pics asap ;
nid tuu make the pic slightly smaller & etc -
loads of time requireddd . T.T
ahhhhs .

The last day of year 2007(31dec07) was quite a bad day ffer mii -
as i mentioned earlier in moii previous post ,,
ii didnt wenn ffer work .
& ii was kinda regret luhhs -
stayed at home & habb tuu face tat jerk .
hadd a kinda huge arguement at public places wid him again luhhs .
& it's over trival matters again . zZz -
realli couldnt tolerate him anymore ;
he dunch deserve moii respect at all `
habb an urge tuu run away from hm at tat moment ;
even planned wad tuu bring along & choose a gd date tuu leave =.=
budd ii did consider some other factors too `
lyk who am ii goin tuu turn tuu & will they get tuu find mi -
wad will be the consquences & etc .
feeling both angry & upset ;
locked in moii rm & criedd lyk hell again (ii must learn not tuu get so emotional) -
& well ` ii did the usual stuffs tat ii usually did whenn ii get upset .
& soon ii fell asleep till ardd 6pm+ ,,
& ffer godness sake ,, tat jerk wenn out liao =.=
didnt wanna talk tuu him luhhs ;
will try nort tuu forgive him =.=
ii cant be so soft-hearted liaos ` ddotss .
endd up ` didnt habb moii dinner till nw ;
not much appetite tuu eat `
actt intended tuu meet ching liang tuu slack ardd & countdwn der ;
however ` ii wasnt in a gd mood aft the aftnoon arguement wid tat jerk -
sighhhs .
hope year 2008 will be a better year ffer mii !
ii wan more happiness & no sorrows ~

jus gort tuu read wq's email ;
abt his feelings & thoughts & etc .
it's so heart-warming & touching lyk always .
he's always jus lyk a guardian angel tuu mii -
although we didnt hab a proper chat ffer very long ;
budd he's always behind prayin ffer mii `
realli very happi tat i cann habb a fren lyk him .
aft reading those emails , ii feel lyk im very cruel towards him ;
didnt noe how tuu response tuu his emails at all .
im realli very sorry tat i've caused him tuu drop endless tears ffer mii ;
btw ii did rmb the 4times =)
ii guess he's ish wondering if there's any 5th time on year2008 . =x
anyways ` may our friendship last ~