1 more week & it will be study break lerr -
it means tat there wont be any usual lessons carrying on `
& ii wont habb tuu go tuu skool till O's start -
happi tat ii can stay at hm tuu study & dun hab tuu go tuu skool anymore ;
budd its oso the same reason tat upset mii .
ii miss all moii friends -
ii miss all the crappings -
ii miss all moii gans -
ii miss all the fun nowadays -
aft 1 week ` most probarly ii wont gett tuu see some frens tat ii wanna see in skool anymore lerh T.T
saddd luhss `
unhappy moments are draggy ` yet happi moments passes so fast .

gotten bback all moii prelim results today -
sadd luhhs ;
onii pass 2 subs in overall ii tink ;

english p1 - 34/60
english p2 - 17/50
english sub total - 51/110 ( failed by 4marks )

chinese p1 - 53.5/70
chinese p2 - 37.5/70
chinese overall - 70/100

maths p1 - 39/80 ( failed by 1mark )
maths p2 - 37/100
maths overall - 42.2/100 ( expected to do better than tis )

science practical - 10/30 ( expected to do better than tis )
science p1 - 19/40
phy p3 - 11/65
chem p4 - 8/65
science overall - 24/100 ( horrible )

f&n theory paper - 40/100
f&n coursework - 78/100
f&n overall - 59/100

lit - 21/50
ss - 19/50 ( expected to do better than tis )
comb humanties - 40/100

eng D7
maths E8
science F9
chinese A2
f&n C5
comb humanties E8
L1R4 - 31pts .

horrible shitty prelim results ,,
sighhhs ,, how am ii goin enter poly if ii scored such results in the actual O's .
sadsadsad . zZz .
24more days tuu the actual O's examination !!

okae ` first 2 periods of the day were nth much -
basically was Mr Goh talking sense tuu us .
& ardd 8.45pm ` we were tuu go tuu hall tuu see our results ;
& there comes moii horrible results luhss . zZz .
aft tat ` was recess ~
eng was free period ,, as mr marvin lim wasnt ardd -
lit was oso free period ,, as mrs brian was oso nort ard .
& we played a fool during those free periods ;
the double sided tape incident was hilarious . =x
enjoyed ourselves loads while playing lyk a fool - lolss .
aft tat was maths lesson `
Mrs Yap went thru our prelim maths p1 wid us ,,
& ii realised ii made several careless mistakes T.T
wouldd hab pass if ii noticed them & if there werent 3marks deducted from p2 for accuracy T.T
ii was kinda pissed off when Mrs Yap rushed thru while goin thru the paper .
didnt hab enough time tuu absorb lolsss .
sianNnnss .

2days ago ` 21sep -
skool sux luhss .
bboredd tuu hell -
got bback some of moii prelim exam paper results -
nort tat surprised tuu get such a lousy grade .
phy p2 ` 11/65 .
sci p1 ` 19/40 .
f&n theory ` 40/100 . (20/50)
f&n overall (wid coursework) - 59/100 .
f&n coursework 39/50 .
was thankful tat moii coursework hab pull up moii f&n grade . lols =DD

it was the 1st time ii saw bran di in skool today -
& oso at the bus stop aft skool dismissal .
& so concidence ish tat he took the same bus as mii ;
lols ` budd we didnt tok at all -

was in ms the whole day -
lvled 4times ffer moii new char . =))
conf wid kel di ,, bran di ,, & kel de ji3 from ardd 8pm+ tuu 12pm+ .
lols ` forgotten wad was the details abt -
oni rmbed tat ii was being suan ;
however ` its kinda interesting in the end .

22sep - ytd -
woke up ardd 12noon today -
hadd a sweet sweet dream ;
however ` it isnt the reality . =((

was in ms till ardd 3pm & wenn out ffer lunch -
came hm & revised bits of f&n till 7pm+ .
conf wid kel & bran aftwards ;
& wenn in ms at the same time -
xr joinedd in the conf soon aft -
& soon ` bran hanged up .
down moii luck ` ii was being ks-ed by a few ppl . zZz .
1 go 1 come ` repeated ffer a several times -
however ` those were jus minor ones .
nort much prob caused -

However ` soon aft ` a idiotic gal ( xzCriskayzx ) came tuu ks mii -
told her nicely nort tuu ks mii `
budd she chose tuu ignore & wouldnt scram off -
she login her main ( nmyanaz ) & demand tuu ks wid kel di ;
budd soon ` she wenn back tuu 'xzCriskayzx' & continue ksing mii -
at the same time ` another kser ( banditmilo ) claimed tat i ksed him -
which ii didnt & the fact tat ii was at tat lane b4 him -.-"
he called his guild members down tuu ks mii -
& tat bitch ( xxendingxx & o0ending0o ) were damn arrogant luhs ;
soon aft ` the guild master of 'chAoSoFgOd' ( wizardofgod) came dwn too -
& the ks war seemed never ending `
as both parties were cursing & scolding one another tuu a ridiculous extent luhs -
was very thankful tat moii fellow frens came down tuu help ;
- baby ffer chionging dwn from ludi tuu help mii ks + scold them -
- kel didi ffer helping mii tuu scold them thru chat + seek help from his didi ( xiiaoxlln ) -
- xr ffer helping dwn tuu help mii ks + scold them + changing several acc tuu help ks .
- xiiaoxlln ffer helping mii tuu mega tuu scold tat guild + scold them in chat -
- zzkillerxx + dern + xiaoravent ffer wanting tuu help mii ks although we dono each another -
aft 2hrs+ of those ksing + cursings ` chAoSoFgOd guild members finally retreated -
however ` the matter did nort rest still .
aft much blahblahblah ,,
guild master of chaOsoFgOd finally agreed tuu call in the conf -
didnt expected him tuu cor in at all -
as all the meanwhile ` the members of his hab stated their stand tat they wouldnt cor in .
misunderstood him as malay in the beginning ;
& it was kinda hard tuu ffer mii tuu communicate in eng luhs -
moii eng was bad tuu the max. luhs
& yet im the one saying everything out zZz -
aft explaining much of the story ` ii realised he was actt chinese lololsss .
wastedd moii energy & breath T.T
aft almost 3hrs ` finally settled everything .
& we began tuu chit-chat + somehow bcame frens .
soon aft ` he hangedd up the fone -
leaving mii , kel di + xr on the conf .
craps loads & kept wanting one another tuu sing us a song . lolss .
however ` ii managed tuu escape in the end =DD
soon ` kel de ji3 joined in the conf too -
however ` mii & xr decidedd tuu hang up the fone soon aft .
7pm - 12am+ ` 5hrs of conferencinggg -
& here i am blogginggg ~

better off tuu slp nowww .
although im nort feeling tired still -
lolss .

came hm ` trained moii new char -
came tuu noe a guy named aldrich (aldlcy) .
unique name uhhs . lols -
agreed tuu be his dar ffer miracleXx ;
lols ` funny funny .
wenn tuu take a nap ardd 5pm -
& woke up ardd 6.30pm ;
continued tuu train abit while watching 7pm show .
aft tat ` conference wid kel di & brandon -
2 against mii . -.-"
ii remained slience in the beginning ,,
however ` soon aft ` ii began tuu bicker wid them aft tat - lolss .
at the same time polish up moii skill =P
lolss ,, its kinda interesting luhs -
budd oso hab some unhappy scenes . =/
hanged up ardd 10pm .
continuedd tuu chat in ms & msn -
& brandon became moii di . lolss .
bcaz he said tat his b'dae ish 31may ` (which is 1day aft mine)
hilarious reason he gave . =/
oh yarhs ,, thx mel ffer sending mii the "secret" de whole album !
yea yea ~ iim so happi -
habb been yearning long ffer tat album . lolsss .

okae ` tats all .
wanna learn tuu slp early -

ard 4.30pm ` wenn downstairs tuu meet vanessa ,,
& we intend tuu study at the void deck near moii hse .
however ` within 5mins ,, dad called -.-"
requested mii tuu go hm tuu help him check some stuffs .
left moii things at dere & ran up moii hse -
then ,, ii pleaded vanessa tuu come over moii hse tuu study instead ;
& aft much persuading ,, she finally agreed . lolss .
revised maths wid her ;
& ii seemed lyk im the one teaching her? lols .
& moreover ` moii maths isnt good either . =//
read thru abit of science ,,
budd cant seemed tuu understand still - siaNns .
ardd 6.30pm ` we started playing a fool .
did lots of silly stuffs =x
however ` its kinda enjoyable =))
& she left ardd 7.30pm bahs .

continued tuu train moii new char aftwards -
& watched a lil tv prog . lolss .
conference wid kel di, xr & brandon ardd 9pm+ .
kinda interesting ,,
keep indirectly shooting kel di =PP
craps craps crapss . lolss .
- jus hanged up the fone . =)

perphaps goin tuu watched moii dvd drama or slp bahs .
siaNnnss .

TODAY
sleepyyy .
had phy p2 in the morning -
was so sleepy tat ii almost doze off several times =/
paper was considered easy compare tuu the past phy papers -
however ,, ii wouldnt pass tis time round again . =/
wenn hm st8 aft the paper ardd 10am `
& off tuu bed soon aft .
slept till 1pm+ . lolss -
nice slp ~~
budd im still feeling @.@ ` restlesss zZz .

some photos taken in the past 1 week -

steamboat ` 170907 -

chocolates ` 170907 .

shines of rainbow colours ` 090907 -

it looks much nicer in rl ` 090907 -

moii supper ` lolsss ` 160907 -

4 remote controls ` 110907 -

today `
habb f&n paper ardd 10am -
gort up early tuu study f&n ;
& ii was 1/2 asleep while studying . lolss . =x
wenn skool aft tat ,,
saw the paper ` & ii was lykk omggs ,,
qns seemed easy budd ii cant rmb wad i've studied . zZz .
mind in confusion T.T
ended up ii tink ii oni knew how tuu handle 30% of the whole paper .
gone ,, dead mii .

lata goin out tuu treat mummy out ffer a meal `
no idea where tuu go tuu . lolsss .
shall tink hardd & fast asap ~

oOooOo~
mayb its good tat some ppl tink im childish ~
lols ,, nth bad abt being childish anyway =//
haiyaaas ,, no pt saying anymore .
wads should be said already said ;
jus hope tis tootpid thingy can jus END from now on ~
yawNnnnesss .

at least he dares tuu own up his mistakes .
unlike some ppl lyk the 3 idiots .
especially the 3rd idiot . lols .

SS of him apologising tuu mi =D

Next ,,
updates abt terence (bgdarling33) `
basic intro abt him ;
knew him thru baby ,, & he happened tuu be moii junior in pri sch . lols -
& the omg tingy is tat moii pri6 chinese tcher was his wushu + chinese tcher !
the world is realli small -
okae . .
ii guessed baby & terence (bgdarling33) 's friendship hab realli torn apart le bahs .
it started off quite smoothly in the beginning -
budd everything started tuu change bit by bit these few days -
felt quite bad treating terence in tis way ;
budd ii respect baby's decision luhs -
ii can understood her difficulty .
as terence & the unknown was abt the same pattern ;
lols ` baby euu noe who the unknown rite? =x
tats y ii wouldnt blame her ffer treating terence in tis way -
anyway the unknown & terence werent any bad guys .
perphaps its jus fated - lols -

Next ,
updates abt mii & jia wei (jw35) -
lols ` happenedd tuu noe him at kerning pq place few days ago nite .
supposingly tuu buy some quest items at dere ;
& he caught moii attention . lolxx .
changed his suit & matched wid mine -
lols ` & we started exchange expressions -.-"
followed by mii spawning sack bags at dere ;
soon ` we started tuu chat bit by bit .
camped at the kerning hospital & chatted ;
realised we hab some common sets of dressings . lololol .
ardd 2am+ ` we wenn tuu the wraith map & slack ,,
budd at tat time ` dad was pestering mii tuu slp . lolss .
& jus a bb ` we parted lolss ` w/o adding buddy or anything -
tot we habb no chance tuu meet again -
budd the next day ` he actt pm mii & we bcame buddies luhs . =)
the end . LOL .

here are some ss taken tat nite when we met .

Aferall ` ms hab bring mii some happiness & sorrows .
however ` most of the incidents were positive ones =D
enjoyed the company of moii buddies & guild members in ms =)

Lastly ! nort abt ms =x
heard from frens & news tat 2 days ago hab an earthquake ;
& sengkang was 1 of the areas tat hitted earthquake -
askedd ardd & every1 who stayed in sengkang hab the experience of earthquake tat day -
interviewed them & all said it was a quite a major one -
budd surprisingly ` ii didnt kanna at all ? lolss .
did nort sense anythin shaking or moving at all ;
weirddd luhss =x
budd actt its a gd ting nort tuu experience earthquake =xx

ii was feelin so nervous wenn ii recieve the paper luhs .
& ii chiong every qns lyk siao -.-"
afraid tat ii hab not enough time again ; lols .
at the las 15mins ` moii graph paper suddenly flew away -.-"
& tat was the time whenn im going tuu start ddoin moii las graph qns .
raised moii hand & those tchers didnt notice until few mins lata -
waste moii time norhs . x.x
aft retriving back moii graph paper `
chiong all the way till las sec . phhewwws .

happened tuu look thru her blog jus now -
tuu check if she hab blog anything abt me . LOL .
as ii hab seen moii name appearing in her blog quite mani times ler nia ;
& lmao ` moii name appeared again luhs .
anyway its so damn crappy bullshit . ZzZz .

ii would lyk tuu clarify sth luhs `
Did i said i tink he is the one who left me first?
wth i did tuu make u tink in tis senselessness way?
& did i ever blame him ? wth is tis .
pls luhs ` i didnt deny tat im the one who leave him at all -
Lastly ` i hab already put the past behind ;
whether tuu believe or not ` is none of my business , zZz
& Did i do anything tat made u feel tat i haven put the past behind?
wth is all these absurd comments sia . zZz .
senselessness bullshitting -
tink wisely b4 u say .

dun tink highly of urself .
& never underestimate mi .

having moii prelim tis whole week ;
monday was chem paper2 `
& ii mistaken it as phy -.-"
ended up din study chem at all -
ii guessed i would get a single digit fer sure ;
siannns . zzz .

tues was science practical .
kinda easy ,, hopefully ii can pass =)

wed was holiday =x
as ii hab no paper on tat day . lols .

today ` thurs was maths paper1 -
the paper was kinda easy .
budd due tuu the time limit ,,
i didnt manage tuu finish it -
skipped lots of qns =/
deaddd . zZz
will be habing maths paper2 tmr ,,
siannNnns .

im so slpy now . x.x
dunch feel lyk ddoin anything .
yawnnns -

hecking care wadeva remarks - zzz .

Banned Names in Singapore

Aunties Quarreling

Singapore Kiasu Aunties

Singapore Erxin Auntie

Uncle Dancing in Mrt

didnt touched any of the books today again ` aHhhhhs .
no motivation again . lolss .
wadd tuu dooooo =/
sit back & relax ? & wait tuu die? lolss .
hope tmr ii can guaiguai dunch on com again =x

anyway i've decided tuu put those tags thingy aside luhs -
sees no point saying so much . lols .
i've nth tuu say much too ;
dench so be it ` wadeva it is ,, it wouldnt affect mii ^^
tuu those who are concern ` dun wry yeah ,, im alright . =)

im a failure in everything ;
ii cant seemed tuu do anything right .
im good at nth `
ii do nort have any redeeming feature ` no strengths budd oni weaknesses .
ii realli felt so inferior .
im nort trying tuu be pessimistic ;
budd tats the cruel reality -
it hurts mii so much budd ii still try tuu keep myself cool -
i've tried nort tuu tink abt it ` trying tuu be hopeful .
budd ii could nort stop moii tears from streaming dwn moii cheeks ;
however ` aft ardd 1/2 an hour ,,
i've stopped moiiself from crying .

However ` soon aft ,,
another incident made mii broke into tears again .
sighs ;

Aft raising mi ffer 17yrs ,,
he still doesnt noe moii likings & everything at all .

ffer example `
i've a habit of eating noodles w/o putting any unnecessary ingredients ,,
& everytime i've reminded him tuu inform the ppl nort tuu put those ingredients ;
budd ` sadly ,, he wouldnt rmb at all if ii didnt tell him at tat moment .
it doesnt happen it jus once ,, it happens everytime -

another example `
aft 190207 unforgettable incident ,, moii left arm was injured ;
ii could sense the bones were cracking whenever ii straightened moii arm .
the pain was beyond words -
i've told him abt tis injury `
budd he ignoredd moii words ` tinking tat im finding excuses .

sighhs ` did he ever pay attention tuu mi?

another example `
wadeva thing im doing ,,
he would say im playing . zZz ` even if im jus sitting on moii bed -
when iim revising moii work ` he would oso treat tat as im playing .
tis is way too ridiculous ;
in his eyes ` im oni capable of playing & nth else .

Did he ever care of moii feelings?
did he noe his words could cause so much impact on mii?
the words tat came right from his mouth were way too hurtful -
the tone he used had seriously sadden mi lots .
jus now ` as ii heard those words `
ii was fuming budd at the same time ` was on the verge of tears .
budd ii controlled moii emotions & ran tuu moii rm ;
ii couldnt take it anymore wenn he continued insulting mii .
ii noe im useless ` budd he didnt hab to say it right at moii face .
aft a few hours ; he finally realised im crying .
& i've told him tat his words hab hurt mii & the pain he caused .
however ` his reply was " aiya ,, wei le yi dian xiao shi qing jiu ku " ;
tuu him ` it might be a small matter ,,
however ` tuu mii it wasnt at all .
he wouldnt understand the hurt ii've gotten .
- filled wid sorrows -

Bitterly ,, ii dono who tuu turn tuu nw .
who tuu share moii sorrows wid -
ii used tuu pour moii sorrows tuu him & baby ;
budd ii do nort wish tuu disturb them any further `
as ffer him ,, he hab tuu accompany his gf ,,
& ii guessed ii shouldnt bother him .
as ffer baby ` she hab her own probs too ;
& tat ii dunch noe how tuu open up tuu her . sighs .
nvm ; i'll keep all tuu myself .

haven been touching the books aft 1/2 the prelim hab ended ;
sighhs ` dono wad had happened tuu mii again -
i've been having moodswing this few days ,,
no mood tuu study at all ` zZzzz .
& ii cant seemedd tuu rmb the things tat i've revisedd . arghhs .
vexeddd .

ii feel lyk screamingggg !! T.T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~~~

flading away ...
mia =/